Velvet Handprint

You left your coat on my chair

Like you still lived here

Like the bruise was a flower

And I watered it all year

Your words were sugar on glass

I kept reaching back

Every apology clean

Every promise coming cracked

I knew the edge

I knew the fall

Still I leaned in

Still I took it all

Hold me, hurt me

Say my name

Pull me close

Then pull away

Hold me, hurt me

I stayed too long

That little wound

Feels like home

I counted the good days wrong

Just to make them stay

Kept your voice in my pocket

Like a key I couldn't throw away

You'd go cold for a week

Then you'd smile like rain

And I'd open every door

For the same old ache again

I knew the cost

I knew the line

Still I kissed the smoke

And called it mine

Hold me, hurt me

Say my name

Pull me close

Then pull away

Hold me, hurt me

I stayed too long

That little wound

Feels like home

I saw the mirror

I saw the chain

Saw my hands

Still reaching for the pain

If I leave

Who am I?

Just a girl in the dark

Learning how to survive

Hold me, hurt me

Say my name

Pull me close

Then pull away

Hold me, hurt me

I let you own

That little wound

But not my bones

Hold me, hurt me

Not again

I can want you

And still say end