Girl I remember like it was just last week that November I made plans to make P but nerves wouldn’t settle right you said just believe that night we set alight told you you was the girl of my dreams was it all lies even I couldn’t see the future so bleak barely a beard on my face telling you to breath you tried to catch you breathe and couldn’t speak told you to get some rest you wouldn’t sleep cus it was truly love but we was just teens should have wore a glove but we was just freaks lost in temptation thinking were free thought it was just a nut but it was more than a beat it was maybe 8 weeks no period I told you it’s probably stress cus you’re modelling career wasn’t in arms reach but what was I to know I was straight off the streets with nothing but ambitions of being on the silver screen I didn’t think too much into it one day imma be a rapper you see
Weeks went on still no sign of blood in ur pants you was thinking of the worst nothing no cramps same mood swings I just held up my hands I couldn’t deal with the ghetto romance I’m a grown man how am I gonna let a woman try and throw hands so I stepped out left you there in tears on the couch I seen them wetting up your blouse but I didn’t care much but in the inside it was tearing my heart out you seen the knife in my hands as you threw that cup at me I put it down you couldn’t even look at me said whose that bitch you was chatting too then pushed forward trying to slap me I had to leave cus inside I was burning for violence but I can’t strike my soul so I left in silence didn’t reply to texts or calls I went slept with you know to ease the stress you caused I was young and dumb I left my hope withering not knowing wagwan with you now I’m sat here smoking this cigarette writing this song for you
I made my mistakes I’m man enough to accept it I never wanted you to feel neglected I still see that text vivid I think I’ve had a miscarriage I had to re read it called you it was like I didn’t understand the language you was speaking frozen in my bedroom heavy breathing what’s this feeling my heart beating a millions miles an hour thinking what have I done was it my fault but inside I’m stuck not knowing what to do your crying hysterical I wanna give you a hug but I’m snapped out of it by a fuck you, you was never there for me you never really cared for me only used me when you was horny I couldn’t reply still lost in my reality watching the world go by slower than I ever saw it inside I feel the pain growing don’t know what to say a tear fell from my eye still feel it’s warmth running down my face you cut the call and we ain’t spoke til this day
