Half of Me Still Yours

It’s been months, but I still flinch

At the thought of your name in someone else’s lips

I don’t hate you, that’s the twist

I hate how I still care like this

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You walked out like it was peace

Like we didn’t build a life in between the sheets

I pretend like I’m alright

But I still check your stories late at night

All my friends say let it burn

But ashes don’t know how to unlearn

I keep your hoodie in my drawer

Guess I’m not as strong as I swore

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I tried to stitch the wound with time

But love like ours don’t bleed out right

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Half of me’s still yours

Like a room that never locked its door

You’re the ghost I never chased

You’re the echo I replay

Half of me’s still stuck

Still writes you songs I never publish

You left, but I stayed

Now I’m just a heart on layaway

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I still park on your old street

And hope I’ll catch a glimpse accidentally

Yeah, I lied when I said I’m fine

Truth is, you never really left my mind

You’re in the gaps of every plan

In the silence where you used to stand

Guess you taught me how to lose

But never taught me how to choose

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Between forgetting and forgiving

Between just breathing or really living

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Half of me’s still yours

Like a room that never locked its door

You’re the ghost I never chased

You’re the echo I replay

Half of me’s still stuck

Still writes you songs I never publish

You left, but I stayed

Now I’m just a heart on layaway

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And if you ever think of me

Just know I still leave space to breathe

In this heart that’s torn in two

One half's mine, but the other's you

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