I learned how to whisper my pain
So no one would hear it scream
I smile like nothing’s broken
While I’m tearing at the seams
I sleep with the lights on
Afraid of my own head
Every thought is a loaded gun
Every word I never said
Pre-Chorus
I don’t need your pity
I don’t need your prayers
I just need the silence
To stop pulling out my hair
Chorus
I’m calm like the ocean before it attacks
Still water, deep cuts in my back
I don’t raise my voice, I don’t fight back
But I remember every crack
I’m quiet, I’m shaking, I’m losing control
With my hands clenched tight and my heart made of stone
I won’t beg, I won’t bleed on the floor
But don’t mistake my peace for mercy anymore
Verse 2
You taught me how to doubt myself
With a smile and a gentle lie
You called it love, I called it hell
Watched my innocence slowly die
I carry anger like a secret
Hidden deep under my skin
It doesn’t shout, it doesn’t move
But it’s patient… it will win
Chorus
I’m calm like the ocean before it attacks
Still water, deep cuts in my back
I don’t raise my voice, I don’t fight back
But I remember every crack
I’m quiet, I’m shaking, I’m losing control
With my hands clenched tight and my heart made of stone
I won’t beg, I won’t bleed on the floor
But don’t mistake my peace for mercy anymore
Bridge
One day I’ll walk away
Without a sound, without a scene
And you’ll feel the weight
Of everything I didn’t scream
Outro
I’m not healed
I’m not okay
I just learned how to survive this way
So when I’m silent, when I stay still
Know it’s not weakness
It’s will