My End

I show everyone what they want to see.
I hurt because I am told,
but here is what lies beneath.
My smile just a cover;
my happiness just a show.
My inner being begging to get out.
I am lost in my own mind,
nothing seems right nothing seems wrong.
My life so pointless at this time.
Living for me and trying to get free,
but bound by useless misery.
So I let my darker side out or so you say,
but all I see is opportunity.
I now leave my old self  on your door step.
Shedding no tears I let it simply die,
with a smile on my face and the bottle in my hand,
I show you what I am.
Now I know you see me as having a good life,
but you don't know my the darker side.
So if I must I do tell.
Constant change no stability,
single mom for most my life.
Guys never stayed but before they left
they hurt my soul.
My Mom was beaten and I can't say how
hard it is to sit and listen.
Where was God those terrible nights?
where was he when hell hit earth?
All that was left was my broken family.
I had to stay strong and to be tough,
at least for my brothers sake.
Now I am stuck not able to see the pain,
that hits the poor kids heart.
Not able now to block the words,
to stand tall once again.
Now I am done and my strength collapse.
No need now for my smiling face,
because no one cares.

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