Surrender To Myself

[Verse 1]
I don’t laugh like I used to
All my colors turned to gray
Every mirror feels accusing
Every sunrise feels the same
I’ve been hiding from my own name
Like a stranger in my skin
If I let the old me find me
Would it hurt or heal again?
[Chorus]
I don’t know what to do anymore
I don’t feel the same
I’m tired and torn
I’m scared of the kid I was before
But I can’t keep fighting this war
So I raise my hands
Let the battle end
Let the river pull me ‘round the bend
If I lose control
Maybe I’ll mend
I want to surrender
I want to surrender
To myself again
[Verse 2]
All my friends say that they miss me
But I’m sitting right there in the room
Smiling like a painted picture
Hoping no one sees the truth
I keep praying for a soft sign
Some small reason to return
To the version I’ve abandoned
To the fire I let burn
[Chorus]
I don’t know what to do anymore
I don’t feel the same
I’m tired and torn
I’m scared of the kid I was before
But I can’t keep fighting this war
So I raise my hands
Let the battle end
Let the river pull me ‘round the bend
If I lose control
Maybe I’ll mend
I want to surrender
I want to surrender
To myself again
[Bridge]
What if the old me
Was only half the truth?
What if the hurt I’m holding
Could turn into something new?
If I fall apart tonight
Will I finally feel alive?
[Chorus]
I don’t know what to do anymore
I don’t feel the same
I’m tired and torn
I’m scared of the kid I was before
But I can’t keep fighting this war
So I raise my hands
Let the battle end
Let the river pull me ‘round the bend
If I lose control
Maybe I’ll mend
I want to surrender
I want to surrender
To myself again

rock, Bluesy pop-rock ballad with male vocals, clean tremolo guitar and warm Rhodes in the verses, big open-strum guitars and stacked harmonies in the chorus. Drums sit in a lazy half-time groove that swells into a more driving backbeat on the hook. Subtle organ pads in the bridge, last chorus drops to voice-and-guitar for one line then band crashes back in for a cathartic finish., blues, pop