I’m not falling

[with the bridge to increase the tempo from 80bpm to 120bpm but slow it back down to 80bpm when it goes back to the final chorus]

[Verse 1 ]
I thought I made myself from scratch
But I talk like them, I break like that
I wear my damage way too clean
Like it never learned how to leave

never learned how to leave

I swear I’m older, swear I’m fine
But I freeze at love every time
I call it fear, I call it fate
But it’s history I can’t escape

[Pre chorus ]
I say I’m good, I say I’m past it
Why does it still hurt this badly?

[First chorus ]
I didn’t know my past would stay
In every word I’m scared to say
I thought I changed, I thought I grew
But I’m still shaped by what I knew

I pull away before I bleed
I ruin things preemptively
I didn’t know it lived in me
Like quiet gravity

[Verse 2 ]
I learned to read the room too well
Learned silence before I learned myself
I overthink every goodbye
Like love’s just something that passes by

I trace my habits back to home
Where “don’t feel” felt like being strong
I swear I’m trying not to be
Everything they made of me

[Pre chorus ]
I’m not a kid, so why do I
Still feel like I’m about to cry?

about to cry?

[Second chorus ]
I didn’t know my past would stay
In every word I’m scared to say
I thought I changed, I thought I grew
But I’m still shaped by what I knew
I pull away before I bleed
I ruin things preemptively
I didn’t know it lived in me
Like quiet gravity

[Bridge ]
If I let it go, who am I?
If I stop bracing, will I survive?
I don’t know where I end and they begin
I just know I’m tired of carrying it

[Final chorus ]
I didn’t know healing hurt like this
Unlearning what I thought was fixed
I’m not broken, just built this way
(not broken)

By nights I never talk about today
I still feel it under my feet
Still pulling hard when I try to leave
I didn’t know it lived in me
Like quiet gravity
(gravity)

[Outro ]
I’m not falling (I’m not falling)
I’m just finally letting myself feel it (feel it)

I’m not falling (I’m not falling)
I’m just finally letting myself feel it (feel it)

finally

finally

Sad Classical Piano ballad, no other instruments