Save Me

(CHOURS)

can someone save ave me, cause i Can't save myself,

how can I love anyone else

when I can't even love myself,

I'm a completely a let down,pushing people away from me

you need to save yourself

further you get the better you will be

even though I don't want to say goodbye

I just want you to be happy,

please don't hate me and stay with me

(VERSE)

Ok it's time lets just breathe, time to give my broken heart a rest, been staring blankly at this wall in my house , Feet hurt its about time to stop running, take this last part of my life slower, struggling through this life of mine, but I don't think anyone noticed, and that's fine, either did my mom and dad, I have been trying so damn hard, pushing and crawling through this shit pile of a life, everyone who made me feel bad, G little ol’me being special or even remotely something people could notice. I'm fucking laughable, Shadowless man a damn laugh track laugh after laugh all I hear everyday, t's on loop constantly, I'm full of anxiety, anxious all the time, I fought my own self now daily, constantly too dumb to see the hands that extend towards me, no one reaching out, stuck in my head, instead of changing I would throw my hands in air, and peace the fuck outta here, people thinking I'm a selfish piece of shit, do I blame them “NOPE”. feeling like I'm walking tight rope without a rope, I turned to dope to cope, waking up with no joy or hope,

(CHOURS)

can someone save ave me, Can't save myself,

how can I love you

when I can't even love myself,

Feeling I'm going just let down,

pushing people away

Please u need to save yourself now

further you get the better you will be l

You will see believe me

though I don't want to say goodbye

I just want you to be happy,

please don't hate me

(VERSE)

remembering a single memory,of the stories of my mommy she had it bad, she had a dad who beat her ass so bad, mentally and physically, wouldn't matter what she would do good or bad, she checked out real fast, mentally her memory would dissipate harder then u would ever expect. My moms was constantly being let down, finding love in all the wrong places, everyman she would get would leave damn quick, understanding Mental illness back than, it wasnt acknowledged like it is now, she was knee deep past half ass empty, actually seriously she was the definition of being sick, my mom married my dad early, she even untied her tubes to have me, then my brilliant dad thought that was that, and wanted to be free, fly with the birds, he took his own life, "enough of that" my mom's almost had a heart attack, so she did what any mother would do, find a new man to fill that gap, but I was left thinking was i not enough, He knew my mom was sick so why did he leave her

then she remarried, a real life love story, everything Seemed to be hunky dory, new beginnings were just over the horizon, she found out substances and lies were going to be her demise,