Learned to late

I still keep you in my contacts just to prove you were the one

First name I would call at night, first text when the day was done

Now my phone don’t light the same, just a silence I can’t shake

You warned me this would happen if I didn’t learn to change

I heard the words but didn’t feel them, didn’t take them to my heart

I was lost inside my head, didn’t think I deserved your part

You gave love I couldn’t hold, I was numb, I was afraid

Didn’t see it then, but now I see the price I let me pay

Patterns from the past came back, I swore I’d never be that kid

But the same little boy showed up, scared, not knowing what to give

Hiding in the corners of the man I tried to be

Running from the truth, pretending I was free

Spent a decade going nowhere, spiraling in circles down

Drinking just to quiet things I never talked about

All the chaos, all the noise, all the damage I ignored

Just a mask to hide the pain I never healed before

I never wanted it to end this way

I never meant to push your love away

It took losing you to finally see

How much you gave, how much you believed in me

Now every quiet moment say your name

Every memory hit me the same

I was blind when you were right there

Now I’m standing in the space you left

You tried to save me from myself

I couldn’t see past my own hell

If I could go back, I’d stay

But I learned too late, yeah I learned too late

I keep you in my contacts still

Like a reminder of what was real

First call, first text, first place I felt safe

Now it’s echoes where your voice used to stay

I never wanted it to end this way

But it took losing you to know

How much you loved me

How much you loved me