[Verse 1]
I’ve been searching for God in the silence,
Not in the pages or the noise of the crowd.
Trying to align my heart with His Spirit,
With a soul laid bare, no pride allowed.
She says she’s trying, but her heart still hides,
The hurt runs deep, and so do mine.
We’re both still standing, but there’s fear in the air—
Like love is there, but it’s gasping for air.
[Chorus]
God doesn’t love me in spite of my sin,
He loves me even with it, again and again.
And maybe she’s trying, just don’t know how,
To speak my love language, at least not for now.
She says she’s willing, but she’s scared of the pain—
Can we break the cycle or just bleed again?
[Verse 2]
I walked the night, through shadows and fear,
Chasing our daughter, wiping back tears.
Didn’t eat, didn’t sleep, just stayed on the move,
Trying to show what love will do.
When I got home, my bags were there,
But she didn’t slam the door—just stood and stared.
She said, “You’ve changed, but I don’t know how
To trust again—not just yet, not now.”
[Bridge]
She doesn’t feel safe in my embrace,
And I’ve got wounds I still can’t face.
We’ve both been broken in different ways,
But I still believe in better days.
She’s not my enemy, she’s just afraid—
And I’ve been silent when I should’ve stayed.
[Chorus]
God doesn’t love me in spite of my sin,
He loves me even with it, again and again.
And maybe she’s willing, but just can’t see
How to love the man who's still learning to be.
She says she needs time, and I understand—
But I’m still right here, with an open hand.
[Outro – Revised]
We still have the dream, it's just buried deep,
Under the shame, the tears we keep.
But love’s not dead, it’s just worn thin—
If we both dig deep, we can begin again.
And I’ll keep showing up, through loss and wins,
‘Cause God still calls me His…
He’s forgiven my sins.
Rayray
