Unthinkable

Thoughts of the un Thought of.

Assumptions led to belief,

Lost bonds over lack or communication,

Questions not asked, Assumptions made

Rumors believed, lost family, for sitting back to see, if anybody believed in me,

Sad reality, led to no family, a death hurt me deeply deeper that anybody in our so-called family, the glue is gone money not there so now they don't care,

Blessing in discize, no more fake love and lies, every card on the table, un believable,

Greed over everything, I thought it was family, once upon a time, that's what he tought me along with everybody else,

cared when they wanted a hand out,

Not there all out, Never asked for help not even emotional wealth, left to die still alive, last of a dying breed, reality see, broken heart but still beating.

Can't kill my will wish I had it in me to say fuck you for believing in that con instead of even asking me, so I put my hands up and walked away, I'm not worth you even questioning, it's not worth my emotional display or explaining, fake love in once was a big family,

Sad to see everybody just wanted tge money, non existing like everyone not ever checking,

Life changed do to extreme depression not drug injection, never even tried that shit, needle fobiea probability saved me,

Scares the shit out of me. I can't even see someone with Diabetes taking medicine by iv, freeks me out, tattoos are OK it's different, No vain puncturing shit, can't do it, makes me cringe tge thought of a Syringe. Can't believe so so little was thought of me, lonely before I even knew it, sad fake family, infected with a gold digging black widow, shaking me head as I walk away nobody even noticed, just thought I was a junkie, happily not, but not in in their thought, not even a background of drug abuse, crippled and don't even use out if fear of abuse, could get all of it but just choose to deal with pain, insane how little they thought of me. So when my pops died I Buried everybody., fake family, Italian too, I can't believe, pops is definitely rolling in the grave, to see what was believed, still letting then think what they want about me, blessing in discize, I don't see They're lying eyes looking down to me, on me thankfully, Thieves but god did see, how everybody left me to die, thinking it would be ,Suicide with a drug OD, nope not me can't die on weed, dont even drink, they don't see me, so a big fuck you to that fake ass family, you'll see at judgment day, shaking my head I hope and prey you lean the truth one day,

You got coned gold digging blackwido hot payed, my eyes were opened to what yall say ,thinking about me, I'm better off got love in my life and an un beatable guardian angel, trust and loyalty in my life, the best gift of all my life,

Fuck you fake family, but thank you for showing me, if it was true I'd be dead that's the truth,

They know who they are, no names needed