Heavy Hands, Heavy Heart

You say you love me

But you slam every door

Turn my little mistakes

Into holy war

Call me back in the morning

Like nothing went wrong

Got your arms around my body

But your words come on strong

That ain’t love

That’s a bully in your chest

Pushing on my tender parts

Calling it a test

You break me down

Then you pull me to your side

If loving you is losing me

I’m laying this hurt down tonight

You hide your hurt in a joke

Make the punchline my name

Tell me I’m too sensitive

Like I’m the one to blame

Say you’re only being honest

Say I’m better this way

But kindness shouldn’t cut this deep

Every single day

’Cause that ain’t love

That’s a bully in your chest

Pushing on my tender parts

Calling it a test

You break me down

Then you pull me to your side

If loving you is losing me

I’m laying this hurt down tonight

I used to shrink to fit your shadow (yeah)

Tried to twist into your truth

But my heart remembers softness

From some older

Gentler youth

So keep your sharp-tongued halo

Your battlefield bed

I’m walking out in the daylight

With your curses off my head

That ain’t love

That’s a bully in your chest

Pushing on my tender parts

Calling it a test

You broke me down

But I made it out alive

If loving you was losing me

I’m choosing my own love this time (oh)

If loving you was losing me

I’m choosing my own love this time