[Intro]
Yeah
I been quiet
Too quiet
Listen
[Verse 1]
Room dark, phone face-down
Group chat lit, I ain’t came ’round
Left them all on read like a tombstone
Say I’m “good bro” in the same tone
Sink in the mattress, hours in a scroll
Timeline full, but my chest got a hole
Mama call twice, let it ring, let it ring
Can’t pick up, I don’t got anything
[Chorus]
I don’t wanna be here, don’t wanna go home
Stuck in the middle of the unknown
Everybody talkin’, “you’re not alone”
But you don’t see the weight in my headphones
Heart so heavy it could break the floor
Smile in the pics, but I shake indoors
If I disappear, will they check that door?
I don’t wanna be here, don’t wanna breathe no more
[Verse 2]
Cold shower, eyes on the tile
Water run hot, I don’t move for a while
Therapist say “gotta write what you feel”
But the pen don’t move when the pain too real
Sleep all day, then I stare at the ceiling
Argue with the voice that keep stealin’ my meaning
Friends say “pull up,” I just lie, say I’m tired
Really I’m afraid they’ll see the world on fire
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
Tell me, if I vanished for a week
Would my name just fade in the feed?
Would they say “damn, man, that’s so deep”
Then forget me by the end of the week? (yeah)
[low vocal register]
I’m tryna hold on with a cracked hand
Prayin’ that tomorrow I can stand, I can stand
[Chorus]