I Knew Where You Were

Two in the morning and I'm staring at the ceiling again

Another night losing sleep thinking where you've been

Funny thing is I already knew

I could've found you anytime I wanted to

Your name never disappeared

Your face never faded away

I just kept telling myself

Don't be the reason her world changes

So I'd see another picture

And convince myself you were fine

Then spend the rest of the night

Trying to get you off my mind

I was lonely

Not the kind that comes from being by yourself

The kind that comes from knowing

The one you wanted is with somebody else

So I kept driving

Kept working

Kept stacking up the miles

Kept pretending everything was okay

Every time somebody asked me why I smiled

Cause they never saw the nights

When I'd replay everything

The conversations

The laughter

The future we almost had

Trying to find the moment

Where our story slipped away

Trying to figure out if there was something

I could've done that day

Seven years is a long time

To carry somebody in your heart

Seven years is a long time

To wonder where you start

I dated

I lived

I laughed

I smiled

But there was always a part of me

Comparing everybody to you

Not because they weren't good people

Not because they didn't care

But because they weren't the girl

I couldn't stop seeing everywhere

Every country song

Every old photograph

Every sunset through the windshield

Would drag me right back

Back to the girl who disappeared

Back to the questions I couldn't solve

Back to the life I imagined

Before it all dissolved

And maybe I should've called

Maybe I should've tried

Maybe I should've risked hearing goodbye

Cause I was lonely

Yeah lonely every night

Smiling through the daytime

Fighting through the night

I knew where you were

But I stayed away

Thinking loving you meant

Letting you stay

I was lonely

Even when life looked good

Even when everyone thought

I was doing what I should

Cause the truth is

Part of me never moved on

I just learned how to carry it

For seven years long

Then one day

Out of nowhere

Your name showed up again

And suddenly all those years

Didn't feel so permanent

All the questions

All the wondering

All the lonely nights

Turned into one realization

Maybe the story wasn't over

Maybe we just weren't ready yet

Cause I was lonely

Until you walked back in

Now every road behind me

Makes a little more sense

And if I had the chance

To rewrite everything

I don't know if I would

Because somehow all those years

All those tears

All those miles

All that pain

Led you back to me again