Things I do at night
Mix The Liquor With The Bleach and turn up the fucking heat.
Barricade the fucking door so I can rest upon the floor.
Send a message after I’m gone, but the voice mail ain’t on.
Cut the places eyes can’t see, eat glass to internally bleed.
I just want to feel something, even if it costs me
Pops some pills in cabinet, while starving half to death
This is the stupid shit I do when I’m left all by myself
Stream going on fake smile for the camera, barely any views thats the stress that im handling
Drink away my problems, punch away the pain I do dumb shit that causes so much vain
You can justify the things I do I at night, yet I know what I’m doing isn’t right
Borderline suicide, I do(don’t) want to fucking die
Can’t I cause a certain type of -cide with all the folks in my life
Lay em all to waste with a serrated knife
No way in this game I’ll end it in a tie
This is only the surface of tower
It’s worse by the floor and more haunting by the hour
It’s amazing what one’s mind can do
You either run it or let it run you
But when it’s an army of you
Then what else can you fucking do
So I just Mix The Liquor With The Bleach and turn up the fucking heat.
Barricade the fucking door so I can rest upon the floor.
Send a message after I’m gone, but the voice mail ain’t on.
Cut the places eyes can’t see, eat glass to internally bleed.
I just want to feel something, even if it costs me
Pops some pills in cabinet, while starving half to death
This is the stupid shit I do when I’m left all by myself
Don’t put me in a box or a jacket, better gimme the hatchet cuz ain’t latching, when you get the locking, the blade get the chopping, ain’t no stopping it once it’s unleashed. We seen in anime right, that protagonist beast. With the rage inside the power he hides, pushing it deep down just to smile on the outside. Holding up the weight of the world upon his fucking shoulders. On the boys ankles lays big ass boulders and he’s trying, to push himself further and further. Unfortunately Thats not reality and I’m back to the chair realizing the gravity. It fucking sucks
So this is testament to my effort my last ditch effort to kick life in the dick, I promise you if I don’t get anywhere soon. Fuck what you say. I’ll quit. Save my game and call it a day, I’m the fucking lord of limbo. And That’s Truly Where I wanna Be
So let me Mix The Liquor With The Bleach and turn up the fucking heat.
Barricade the fucking door so I can rest upon the floor.
Send a message after I’m gone, but the voice mail ain’t on.
Cut the places eyes can’t see, eat glass to internally bleed.
I just want to feel something, even if it costs me
Pops some pills in cabinet, while starving half to death
This is the stupid shit I do when I’m left all by myself