I think I found the love of my life I’m scared
What if I wake up and she’s not there
Taking two blue pills with the white I don’t care
She left me when I was going through it how’s that fair
Leaving me with pieces of my heart bleeding from the tears
You always said you’d be right there
I’m pouring out my soul right here
This was always my biggest fear
Feelings like I’m already dead
Giving too much effort it’s going to my head
Nobody sees I’m hanging on by a thread
If I die just look back an listen to what
I said
They saying it’s all in my head
This ain’t drugs baby these are my meds
I know I was right when we met
I know you see everything that I sent
True love burns nothing is said
You say you was the one but you left
You wonder why im a mess
Just wish you would call or send a text
So now I’m Swimming in my room
Preparing for my doom
I took two times two
You’re mad I’m not like you
Feel like I’m fighting alone
My house don’t feel like home
I’m lost in my head
Drugs and women became a problem
I’m trying my best to solve them
My dad died from a odee I’m not trying to be like him
The way it’s going I might as well just be like
him
My granny taught me better and I’m ashamed
I never knew a heartbreak would end me up this way
Pills and money hiding all this pain
Feel like I’m fighting alone
I was lost for awhile now
You give me hope again
Riding by myself cause I’m the only one who understands me
I know I’ve been feeling selfish but it pains me
I have so much on my sleeve
Having trouble falling asleep
so I turn on the tv
Guess what I see
Another show that reminds me of me
Sit and cry myself to sleep
Remembering all the times I couldn’t eat
Devil trying to get me to plead
I’m trying to figure out why my dad left me
The biggest question is would you care if I died
Nobody there when I’m depressed all the time
Suicide on my my mind All the time
Do you see the signs
I’ve lied to my brothers a thousand times
They think I’m living my best life
In reality I stay alone just to hide
This is something you ain’t know about mine
Crushing up the pills put em in a line
Looking in my eyes
You can tell I’m high
Are you surprised
I know if I go my family is going to want to rewind
Drinking on this medicine
Devil at my door do I let him In
I get it
Maybe it’s me
The truth was always make believe
Prepared for the worst that’s why I always have these percs
Momma didn’t teach me that love would hurt
No I’m not alright
Feeling like I’mma lose this fight
No I can’t sleep at night
Recently I’ve been numbing getting high
Wishing you was by my side
This is something that’s going to take some time
When you said you didn’t love me no more
My heart fell on the floor
I watched you walk out those doors
Something I’ve told you I’ve dreamt before
I don’t think I can love anymore
Drinking to get over you
I go to our old pictures thinking I lost you to soon
These pills go
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