Distrust freestyle

I wake up in the morning
and wonder why every thing happens,
I’m losing control, I been snapping
I don’t be thinking somebody is itching to get me
I just think they be itching to trap me
You don’t know bout the pain
You don’t know the scenes in my brain
Gotta sit alone so I can think
Was it a year ago?
Was it all really my fault?
Should I put some more pep to my pace
I’m feeling like Neyo
I’m told that I’m chosen 
But ain’t have a choice how I get to my fate
Say it all to my face
Don’t wait til I’m gone
Just keep it a bean with me baby in case
I never told you about what I’m seeing
I always told you I’ll never be leaving
But when you ain’t with me 
I’m running in place
How can I show you the things I can’t say?
How can I show the moment I gave her my all
But she plotted to get me replaced
There was a niggha who fell for the drama
He thought he was tough and got put on a stake
He couldn’t wait to show me all of his guns
now his daughter can’t shake him awake
She was scheming to kill me…….
“Baby Leave your gun at home”…..
Shoulda known she would lie to my face
What more can I say?……
What more can I-
Yeah…….
Trust me it’s tough but believe me
You cant tell anybody my secrets
I ain’t mean it, but did it 
So now they see me as a demon
But don’t know the whole thing
First it started with fraudulent calls
All the threats about killing and all
Tried to break in the balcony door 
but ain’t know where I kept the A R
In a moment you’ll see how it evolved…..
Even broke in my company vehicle
I couldn’t copy the property cameras
Same message received every night
Talking bout how they fucked you and all-shit
You would blame me for everything
While you fucking in hospital offices
While that nigha was threaten to kill me
You froze……
I picked up the Taurus and upped it
He ain’t know that brought it at all
He looked at you and said-
“You a dawg bitch”
The reason I’m living with ptsd
You told me you loved me
While you was plotting and scheming
You told them to off me?
Damn……..

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