[Intro]
I woke up counting ceiling tiles
With a stranger's hand around my wrist
Every breath came back in pieces
And I learned how close the ending is
[Verse 1]
Now I measure every doorway
Map the exits, check the locks
I keep my phone beside the pillow
Like a lifeline in a box
Friends ask why I never answer
Why I vanish when they call
I don't have the words to tell them
I am bracing for the fall
[Pre-Chorus]
The room gets small
My pulse gets loud
I disappear inside the crowd
[Chorus]
I almost died, now I live like a ghost
With both hands clenched around what I fear most
If I stay quiet, nothing can break through
But every sealed door keeps me away from you
I almost died
And I don't know how to come back
[Verse 2]
I avoid the roads at midnight
Turn the radio down low
Every siren cuts straight through me
Every flashing light says go
I wear silence like a jacket
Pull the collar to my chin
If nobody gets close enough
Nobody sees the damage in
[Pre-Chorus]
The room gets small
My pulse gets loud
I disappear inside the crowd
[Chorus]
I almost died, now I live like a ghost
With both hands clenched around what I fear most
If I stay quiet, nothing can break through
But every sealed door keeps me away from you
I almost died
And I don't know how to come back
[Bridge]
But you sat beside the hospital bed
And never asked me to explain
You let the silence fill the hours
You stayed until I said your name
I am not the moment that broke me
I am not the alarm, the blood, the fear
I can open one door tonight
I can let somebody near
[Breakdown]
One breath
One step
No more rehearsing the end
One breath
One step
I am still here
I am still here
[Final Chorus]
I almost died, but I am more than the ghost
Still carrying the weight, still facing what hurts most
I can stay quiet, but I won't disappear
I'll leave one door open and let you meet me here
I almost died
But I am learning how to come back
[Outro]
The room gets wide
My pulse slows down
I lift my eyes
I am still here