I took hard drugs

I took hard drugs, they were kinda fun, till I had more than enough, and realized I was just tryna escape, nothing there to actually escape from just the demons inside my head, those thoughts that will not go away, running on repeat, constantly, this wasn't who I was but I kind of gave up, I wasn't happy with myself. One day when I tried to smoke my pain away but lucid thoughts wont leave my brain, I glanced around seen what all I had found, see I took hard drugs in a shed with a dealer named tony and then I felt something was off, I heard a man come back after he was gone, he overdosed that's when I knew I had to go. Did everything in my power to ease the pain really all I gained was more pain in the end. I took the hard drugs, it dimmed my light, once I stopped it started to shine. Even with all the pain I've gained, there will always be that small fear that I'll do it again.