[Intro – Spoken, soft laughter fading into a whisper]
Haha…
Funny, right?
Mama always said, “Smile pretty for the world.”
So I did.
Even when it hurt.
Especially… when it hurt.
(A slow, hollow piano starts—like a lullaby gone wrong.)
[Verse 1]
Mama, are you proud of me?
Or did I just become your shame in skin?
A mirror you can’t look into,
The ghost of who you could’ve been.
I painted smiles over every bruise,
Laughed while breaking into two.
They clapped, I bowed, I played my part—
But where were you? Where was your heart?
[Pre-Chorus – Stripped back, vocals almost whispered]
If I laugh loud enough, can I feel something?
If I break hard enough, will you start loving?
Or am I just your silent child in the crowd?
(Haha… look at me now.)
[Chorus]
Haha, guess I fooled them all,
Dancing through your wrecking ball.
Said, “I’m fine,” like it’s routine—
But I’m bleeding in between the scenes.
You killed me quiet, not with hands,
But with love I couldn’t understand.
Buried alive in what you didn’t say—
Mama, why’d you look away?
[Verse 2]
I traced my worth in empty rooms,
Wrote poems in dust, sang silence in tombs.
Screamed your name through dreams that rot—
All I got was… everything I’m not.
They loved me when I played pretend,
When I smiled wide and didn’t bend.
But when the laughter fades to black—
Will anyone ever look back?
[Pre-Chorus]
They only see what I let them see…
They only laugh ’cause I set them free…
But I’m still chained, still stuck, still small—
Living a lie just to matter at all…
[Chorus]
Haha, guess I fooled them all,
I wear your silence like a shawl.
Said, “I’m fine,” like I rehearsed—
But the joke always hurts the worst.
You killed me soft, without a sound,
In the spaces where love should’ve been found.
No fists, no knives—just a closing door,
Mama, I’m not your child anymore.
[Bridge – Soft, eerie piano and breathy vocals]
You never had to yell or scream,
Your quiet cut deeper than any dream.
I begged for love behind your eyes…
But all I found was your disguise.
You turned away, and I turned to ash,
A clown in your circus, gone in a flash.
Now I laugh just to fill the void—
A puppet mama never enjoyed.
[Final Chorus – Raw, vulnerable, with layered whispers and a ghostly harmony]
Haha… guess I fooled you too,
Smiling through the hell you never knew.
“I’m okay”—my finest lie,
Still telling it, even as I die.
Every joke another scream,
Every smile a severed dream.
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