Verse 1
My hands are clean but I feel stained
I stayed, I swore, I broke again
Your name still crawls inside my head
Like something holy mixed with dead
I built a home on shattered trust
Called it love, called it “enough”
I sleep beside you every night
Still fight the urge to run or bite
Pre-Chorus
I don’t scream
I don’t cry
I just rot
With open eyes
Chorus
This is the war inside my veins
Faith and fury share my name
I forgave you, not myself
I drag your past through living hell
It’s a war I cannot win
Every breath feels like a sin
I hold you close, I clench my jaw
I chose the love, I chose the war
Verse 2
I pray for peace, I taste the blood
I call it grace, my body doesn’t
Your shadow follows every touch
I hate how much I need your love
I tried to be the better man
But rage still shakes me when I stand
There’s something broken in my chest
That forgiveness never fixed
Pre-Chorus
I don’t speak
I don’t blame
But my silence screams your name
Chorus
This is the war inside my veins
God and anger break the chains
I forgave you, not the sight
That replays every goddamn night
It’s a war that eats me slow
Smiles outside, decay below
I kiss your lips, I feel the claw
I chose the love, I chose the war
Bridge
If I leave, I die alone
If I stay, I lose my bones
So I build peace out of pain
And call this suffering “faith”
I don’t want revenge or truth
I just want my mind brand new
But some wounds don’t fade with time
They just learn to live inside
Final Chorus
This is the war behind my eyes
Where mercy bleeds and pride survives
I forgave you, that’s the cost
But part of me is still lost
It’s the war I’ll never say
The one that taught me how to stay
I wear the ring, I hide the scar
I chose the love
I chose the war
Outro
Some wars don’t end in peace
They end in silence.
RALF
