Verse 1
You hit me with a “hope you’re good” at 10:32
Like a bandage on a bullet hole was all you had to do
I put whole damn storms inside a one-word text for you
Spent more heart in “thanks” than half the world ever knew
You used to call me just to breathe and tell me everything
Now I learn your life in fragments, secondhand and in-between
I keep shrinking to a version you can stand to see
Turned myself down to a whisper so you wouldn’t leave
Pre-Chorus
You reach when the walls cave in
When the fear gets loud, when the dark rolls in
But the second the air gets thin enough to breathe
You let go of me
Chorus
You loved me in emergencies
Not enough to build a life
Called me when the world went black
Never in the morning light
I was home when you were breaking
Never who you chose outright
You loved me in emergencies
Not enough to build a life
Verse 2
You called before the surgery, voice shaking in the dark
Said if I took that bet I’d lose, then put my name back in your heart
I said no matter what, I love you, you said you loved me too
Then my birthday came and went like I was nothing new
I know you feel me in the shadows, in the panic, in the pain
I know my voice still finds you when your whole chest fills with rain
But I can’t live on crisis, I can’t survive on almosts
Can’t keep being your safe place while you treat me like a ghost
Pre-Chorus
You reach when the walls cave in
When your hands shake hard, when you need my skin
But the second the ground gets still under your feet
You stop choosing me
Chorus
You loved me in emergencies
Not enough to build a life
Called me when the world went black
Never in the morning light
I was home when you were breaking
Never who you chose outright
You loved me in emergencies
Not enough to build a life
Bridge
I turned myself down to low
So you could stand the sound of me
Held back every wound I had
Just to keep you close to me
You say closeness cuts too deep
That love feels like a knife
Guess I was good enough to stop the bleeding
Not enough to build a life
You kept me warm inside your fear
Cold when you were fine
I was your almost, your in-between
Your “maybe” all this time
You knew exactly what I felt
You just could not survive
A love that asked for daylight
Not just shelter for the night
Final Chorus
You loved me in emergencies
Not enough to build a life
Called me when the world went black
Never in the morning light
I was home when you were breaking
Never who you chose outright
You loved me in emergencies
Not enough to build a life
Outro
So don’t tell me that you miss me
If you only miss me in the fire
I was good enough to save you
Never good enough to be desired
Now I know your silence better
Than I ever knew your eyes
You loved me in emergencies
Not enough to build a life
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