Loved Me in Emergencies

Verse 1

You hit me with a “hope you’re good” at 10:32

Like a bandage on a bullet hole was all you had to do

I put whole damn storms inside a one-word text for you

Spent more heart in “thanks” than half the world ever knew

You used to call me just to breathe and tell me everything

Now I learn your life in fragments, secondhand and in-between

I keep shrinking to a version you can stand to see

Turned myself down to a whisper so you wouldn’t leave

Pre-Chorus

You reach when the walls cave in

When the fear gets loud, when the dark rolls in

But the second the air gets thin enough to breathe

You let go of me

Chorus

You loved me in emergencies

Not enough to build a life

Called me when the world went black

Never in the morning light

I was home when you were breaking

Never who you chose outright

You loved me in emergencies

Not enough to build a life

Verse 2

You called before the surgery, voice shaking in the dark

Said if I took that bet I’d lose, then put my name back in your heart

I said no matter what, I love you, you said you loved me too

Then my birthday came and went like I was nothing new

I know you feel me in the shadows, in the panic, in the pain

I know my voice still finds you when your whole chest fills with rain

But I can’t live on crisis, I can’t survive on almosts

Can’t keep being your safe place while you treat me like a ghost

Pre-Chorus

You reach when the walls cave in

When your hands shake hard, when you need my skin

But the second the ground gets still under your feet

You stop choosing me

Chorus

You loved me in emergencies

Not enough to build a life

Called me when the world went black

Never in the morning light

I was home when you were breaking

Never who you chose outright

You loved me in emergencies

Not enough to build a life

Bridge

I turned myself down to low

So you could stand the sound of me

Held back every wound I had

Just to keep you close to me

You say closeness cuts too deep

That love feels like a knife

Guess I was good enough to stop the bleeding

Not enough to build a life

You kept me warm inside your fear

Cold when you were fine

I was your almost, your in-between

Your “maybe” all this time

You knew exactly what I felt

You just could not survive

A love that asked for daylight

Not just shelter for the night

Final Chorus

You loved me in emergencies

Not enough to build a life

Called me when the world went black

Never in the morning light

I was home when you were breaking

Never who you chose outright

You loved me in emergencies

Not enough to build a life

Outro

So don’t tell me that you miss me

If you only miss me in the fire

I was good enough to save you

Never good enough to be desired

Now I know your silence better

Than I ever knew your eyes

You loved me in emergencies

Not enough to build a life