Aye aye yeah yeah … am I okay to let you know I ain’t been the same ? Hadn’t had the time to make a change! I’m lost im trying different things.
Struggling all the time trynna make ends meet. but I’m beat working every day every week! Shits exhausting I can barley speak.. the bills taking everything I own basically work for free !! Aye I’m doin fine tho , yeah I’m hearing voices all the time I can hear them in my head ! I can’t be alone it makes me do some stupid shit I regret.
Yeah I’m happy I got everything I need ! I can’t comprehend the things that’s going through my head I try to cope and I let it go.. I can’t believe you gone it’s been way to long I just hope your proud I’m always looking up I ain’t even looking down!! But I know the thunder’s rolling loud ..
Aye cheers to smoking down rolling up that loud . Pop another pill listen to the sound slowly disappear I can finally hear everything I need to know it takes 3,4 to take away the pain I can’t go ah day or I go insane this shits killing me slowly I can feel it slowly taken me away! Trust me I’m praying every day that I see a sign. Even when it rains I’m hoping for a better change let’s not play pretend that I’ve came a long way from growing up eating from paper plates an roaches in the cabinets had to flick them bitches away..
But I’m hoping I can change hoping for better ways!! Addiction really takes control it takes a fucking toll but I can’t drop the shit I can’t let it go I gotta pop ah pill I gotta fucking smoke! I gotta do some other shit then feel the fuck alone I hate my own skin let’s not pretend I’d rather be in the dark .. then to be sober again I fucking hate here I just wanna disappear the world would be a better place if I wasn’t even here!!!!
But I just don’t like to feel alone I can’t give up I gotta goooo praying to the lord that i make it out one dayyyyyyyy with live and hope I’ll be okayyyy so pray with meeee and the pain will go awayyyyy…
