Jester in Paranoia

(soft reverb, distant synth, faint laughing echoes)

I’m just a jester… crying out for help…

Ain’t nobody tryna help…

They always told me… go to hell…

(echoes repeat, vocal chopped)

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I’ve been a diamond in the dirt

I hate the underground, yeah, I’ve been hurt

Cousins write letters, “let’s hang out”

But I hide in my home, don’t know what that’s about

They treat me like I’m dumb, hold me upside down

Try to play it out, act like brothers now

I give you my all… I suffer once more

I’m the jester they warned about before

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They fuckin’ hate me, yeah, they all hate me

Paranoia eyes ‘til the day they take me

Social suicide ‘cause they all gon’ betray me

I don’t need no help… I’ll survive anyway, see

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I’m a jester crying out in amber flames

Now I’m a goth star, you’re tryna play my games

I bleed in the dark, they all feel the shame

Paranoia eyes, but I remember my name

I’m a jester… yeah, a jester in paranoia

I’m a jester… yeah, a jester in paranoia

(layered synth, trap percussion, heavy reverb)

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Mind overflows with cussin’ and hatred

I’ve done nothing wrong, but they all try to break it

Smoke in my home, I’m myself tonight

You keep heading south, dancing in the light

Makeup on, mess it up, fall in love once

Hiding from the sun… hiding from the sun again

I won’t be afraid, I’ll act on my fantasies

Get higher than Mars, I want it once more, see

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(droning synths, whispering layered vocals, faint laughing echoes)

A jester’s crown, a diamond in the dirt

I rise from pain, now they care ‘bout my hurt

Paranoia eyes but I can finally see

I’m the storm, I’m the fire… I’m finally free

*(builds with hi-hats, subtle bass growl, vocal chops echo “help… help… help…”) *

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I’m a jester crying out in amber flames

Now I’m a goth star, you’re tryna play my games

I bleed in the dark, they all feel the shame

Paranoia eyes, but I remember my name

I’m a jester… yeah, a jester in paranoia

I’m a jester… yeah, a jester in paranoia

(echoing outro, reverb fades into faint laughter and wind FX)