HOW MANY TIMES I TRIED (BUTTERFLIES)
Verse1
I tried not to beg, I tried not to text
I tried not to check if you’re online
I deleted everything about you
But my heart never got the sign
I tell myself I’ll be okay
But the night won’t let me escape your memories
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Chorus
How many times I tried to take you out my mind
I don’t know how, I don’t know why
I erased your name, your voice, your signs
But you’re still in my heart, still in my mind
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Verse 2
Even your silence is killing me
It takes my breath, I can’t breathe
Every second you don’t speak
Feels louder than a scream
Tell me what I’m supposed to do
I tried everything just not losing you
If forgetting you’s the way to survive
Why am I fighting your memory every night?
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Final Chorus (soft → strong)
How many times I tried to take you out my mind
I swear to God, I really tried
I let you go—at least I lied
How many times I tried… but you stayed inside
I tried to drown the thoughts of you
But nothing helps, nothing’s right
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Verse 3
I tried to let you disappear from my life
But you’re still everywhere I hear
Your voice in songs, your shadow in light
You’re gone, but you’re still right here
Every night I imagine you close to me
The way you talked, the way you laughed
Like you never walked away from love
Like nothing between us ever cracked
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Bridge
You left without fighting for our love
I don’t know how you feel now
If you could read these words I write
Would you know how much you meant somehow?
This song is everything I never said
Every truth I couldn’t show
I hope you know your value to me
Even if you’ll never know
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Outro (message to her)
I don’t beg you or text you like before anymore
I let you live your life, even if you don’t care
So I write these songs to say I loved you more
My butterfly… you were always there
fraidoon
