(Verse 1)
You came in like a slow-burn fire,
Whispered my name with that velvet lie.
Said “forever” with your ghost-white smile—
But forever never stayed for more than a while.
I kept your secrets in a wine-stained drawer,
Pressed roses dying on my bedroom floor.
Every time your stories broke and fell apart,
You stitched the blame straight into my heart.
(Pre-Chorus)
You twist the truth like it’s your favorite game,
Turn every question into my shame.
I know the truth but I still wanna believe—
God, what’s wrong with me?
(Chorus)
’Cause I get crazy, baby, when you lie to me,
Turn the nights into wars you never wanna see.
I’m drowning in the love that you weaponized—
Your poison paradise.
And when you vanish, leave me screaming inside,
I’m on my knees just to keep you satisfied.
You made me this way, love—don’t you see?
Your sins built the monster in me.
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(Verse 2)
You talk in riddles coated in honey,
Sweet on the tongue but killing me slowly.
And when your lies finally fall apart,
You point at me like I’m the one at fault.
“Why are you like this? Why don’t you trust me?”
You say, acting holy while you’re guilty.
And when the proof is staring back at you—
You disappear like you always do.
I run through midnight, searching every street,
Calling your name till my voice grows weak.
Begging you, baby, “Please come home to me”…
How pathetic can love make someone be?
(Pre-Chorus)
My heart’s a chapel filled with broken hymns,
Every prayer I keep is stained with your sins.
If love is holy, then why do I bleed?
Why do I still believe?
(Chorus)
’Cause I get crazy, baby, when you lie to me,
Turn the nights into wars you never wanna see.
I’m drowning in the love that you weaponized—
Your poison paradise.
And when you vanish, leave me crying outside,
Begging for mercy just to keep you in my life.
You made me this way, love—can’t you see?
Your sins built the monster in me.
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(Bridge)
Maybe I love the pain you bring,
The chaos wrapped in diamond rings.
Maybe I’m scared to live without your dark—
You’re the wound I keep calling “heart.”
I trace your name in cigarette smoke,
A girl destroyed by the lies you spoke.
I hate you, I need you, I pray you’d stay—
Guess that’s the price of loving you this way.
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(Final Chorus)
I get crazy, baby, when you lie to me,
Turn my heart into wounds only you can see.
I’m trapped inside the love you weaponized—
Our toxic paradise.
Still you break me, take me, ruin me twice,
Yet I come crawling back like it’s paradise.
You made me this way, love—don’t you see?
You’re the reason there’s no trust left in me.
(Outro)
Yeah… your love built the monster in me.
And God, I still want you endlessly.
Selvy
