The last thing I couldn’t bury

I carved your name into the parts of me

That I swore I’d never show

You took the light I used to breathe

Then left me in the cold

I wore your memories like chains

And called the weight my home

Every promise turned to pain

Every road led me alone

So if you love me, don’t come near

Don’t say the words I need to hear

I’ve built a heart that won’t forgive

And I’m not sure I want to live

I tried to drown you in the dark

But your ghost still knows my name

I tore the pieces of us apart

Still somehow felt the same

You were the fire in my veins

The only thing that made me whole

Now every spark just feeds the flames

That burn inside my soul

So let me go before I break

Before I become my worst mistake

You gave me everything you had

And I gave you everything I lacked

I still remember how you smiled

Before the world went black

I would have followed you a thousand miles

If I knew you’d lead me back

But you chose the door, you chose goodbye

And left me with the wreckage

Now every time I close my eyes

I see the life we never had

So don’t come back to save me

Don’t pretend you understand

You couldn’t hold me when I needed you

So don’t reach for my hand

I hope you find the peace I lost

I hope you sleep without regret

And if you ever think of me

I hope you haven’t forgotten yet

Because I still carry what you left

Like a scar beneath my skin

And the cruelest thing about goodbye

Is knowing I would let you in

So bury me beneath the memories

And leave the past where it belongs

I’ll spend my life pretending

I was never yours all along

And if you still love me somewhere

If my name still haunts your dreams

Don’t tell me that you miss me

Let me believe you don’t care

Because the last thing I couldn’t bury

Was the part of me that loved you

And the worst thing I could ever know

Is that some part of me still does.