Lost in the Faking

Oh, I remember, like it was yesterday

That awkward spark, that trembling sway

Faking confidence, yeah I played it cool

But inside I was just a fool

First glance, my heart took a leap

Trying hard, but feelings steep

Knew just enough to look the part

Lost in the game, unsure of my heart

Did I ever really grow out of that?

Or do I still wear that mask?

Haunted by the youthful flame

Still pretending, still the same

Oh, how I wish I could go back and see

Those nervous knees and that longing plea

Faking it all, yet learning to be

Did I ever really set me free?

Forty years on, do I still pretend?

Or are we all just longing for a friend?

Oh, the past, it’s a ghost that stays

Haunting in such curious ways

Growing older, still the same game

Lessons learned, but it’s never quite tame

Faking strength in the mirror’s stare

Holding onto the love we dare

Do I admit I’ve clung so tight?

Faking grace in morning’s light

Memories like shadows creep

Longing for what I couldn’t keep

Oh, how I wish I could go back and see

Those nervous knees and that longing plea

Faking it all, yet learning to be

Did I ever really set me free?

Forty years on, do I still pretend?

Or are we all just longing for a friend?

Oh, the past, it’s a ghost that stays

Haunting in such curious ways

Maybe it’s okay to hold on tight

To those sparks, that youthful flight

Learning, stumbling, that’s the part

Of every brave and beating heart

So here’s to the fakes, the dreams we chase

To every awkward, shining face

Time moves on, but we still keep

Those memories, soft and deep

And maybe, just maybe, what we fake

Is what’s real, the love we make