Pain 2

I don’t know god what happened?Why ? It hurts so bad . Can you please call me faster than my life but call me when I am in my sleep without any pain. It’s been straight 4 months I can’t sleep early my eyes and body hurts so bad god. Please call me asap. In this life I am worthless neither my relationship good to my love nor I can be good son like 7 years back. Whenever I see my parents i get more lost. They were ready I was ready I don’t know what went wrong but god I swear I want to be with her. Every day I am gonna write letter in my note’s how I feel. Maybe it mayease my life but god erase me from this shattered pain.