Dorian

I learned the language of waiting

Cold paper gowns and hospital light

Counting days like prayers on my fingers

Trying not to break every night

There were names that never got spoken

Tiny ghosts I still carry near

Every negative line like a funeral

Every month another year

And I told myself

“Don’t hope too hard”

But hope kept blooming anyway

Wild as weeds through concrete

Now you’re here

Little heartbeat in the dark

Tiny thunder under my ribs

Lighting up the hollow parts

After all this time

After all the tears

You’re the answer to a question

I’ve been asking for years

And I don’t even know your face

But I swear I’ve known your soul

My whole life was an empty room

Till your love came walking home

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Now every morning feels sacred

Even sickness tastes sweet somehow

I hold my breath before each ultrasound

Then hear your heartbeat loud

Your father smiles like sunrise

His hand resting over mine

And suddenly the future

Doesn’t feel so far behind

I still wake up scared sometimes

Like joy might disappear

But then you move

And pull me back here

Now you’re here

Little heartbeat in the dark

Tiny constellation

Growing underneath my heart

After all this time

After all the ache

Every lonely road I traveled

Led me to this place

And I don’t even know your voice

But I’d know it anywhere

You were written into every prayer

I whispered into air

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So grow slow, my darling

I’m not rushing this

I waited years to meet you

I can wait a little more for this

And if someday you wonder

Just how wanted you were

You were dreamed of in silence

Long before the world heard

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You are here

And the world feels different now

Like the house finally has music

Like rain finally found the ground

After all this time

I get to call you mine

And every broken piece of me

Was leading to this life

So sleep safe beneath my heartbeat

Little miracle of mine

You are every prayer

That survived

After all this time