Intro
I used to pray with my back to the wall
Now I pray with my kids in the hall
Verse 1
I learned early how to disappear
Smile wide, keep the damage unclear
Ghosts in the medicine drawer
God felt stuck behind a locked door
I chased relief like it knew my name
Every bottle said, “You’re not to blame”
Mirror said, “Son, that ain’t livin’”
That’s just blackin’ out in disguise
Chorus
I been lost, I been saved, I been torn in two
I been runnin’ from hell just to run into You
I broke promises I meant to keep
But I woke up one day and I chose to breathe
Yeah I bent, yeah I bled, yeah I fell apart
But I’m still standin’ in the doorway, heart to heart
With the life I damn near threw away
I’m still standin’… I’m still stayin’
Verse 2
There’s a woman who loved me past reason
Held the line through every season
Kids with my eyes, crooked grin
Didn’t know how close I came to quittin’ them
Every bedtime prayer cut like glass
“Please let Daddy make it back”
Chorus (lift)
I been weak, I been proud, I been ashamed
I been callin’ myself by the wrong damn name
I traded truth for temporary peace
Till the cost came due—and it wasn’t cheap
Yeah I bent, yeah I bled, yeah I fell apart
But I’m still standin’ in the doorway, heart to heart
Bridge
There’s a fear that don’t sleep under my skin
Says, “You could lose it all again”
But faith in the cracks of my doubt
Says, “Son, you ain’t done yet—don’t bow out”
Verse 3
I built a life outta scars and grit
Learned how to stand when the math don’t fit
Money comes, money goes
Time’s the thief nobody knows
I won’t spend another year
Too busy grindin’ to keep ’em near
Final Chorus
I been rich, I been broke, upside down
I been king, I been buried in the ground
Now I’m sober enough to finally see
What the hell really matters to me
Yeah I bent, yeah I bled, yeah I fell apart
But I’m still standin’ in the doorway, heart to heart
With the life I damn near threw away
I’m still standin’… I’m still stayin’
Outro
I pray with my kids in the hall
Not ’cause I’m perfect—
Just ’cause I’m here at all
Yeah… I’m still here.