My fault

How can I let go papa tell me I sit here crying some time wishing it was me that left I sit here trying to see you but its not working I wish I could see you I sometimes think its my fault that you left me I blame myself because I want a good granddaughter I yelled at you screamed hit you I wish I could take it back but I can't I wish I could change the past sometimes I think its my fault that you.left me I love you I still cry and hold you in my heart crying cause your not around and I cant let go go I wish... I wish I could change the past all over again......