“38 Days in the Dark”
(Intro – whisper layers, panned left/right)
stay…
please stay…
don’t leave me here…
don’t—don’t—don’t—
(low bass rumble, distant creak, heartbeat kicks in)
(Verse 1 – low, tight, building)
I begged on my knees ‘til my throat went numb,
Spoke apologies like a loaded gun,
Every word I said just ricocheted,
Cold silence cut deeper than the games you played.
Months on repeat, me chasing ghosts,
You fed me crumbs, I called it hope,
You turned your back like I was dust,
While I was choking on “just one more chance” and trust.
(Pre-Chorus – rising, strained)
You ever scream and nothing moves?
You ever break and they don’t choose you?
I carved your name into my veins,
Just to feel something through the pain.
(Chorus – explosive, high/low contrast)
THIRTY-EIGHT DAYS IN THE DARK WITH MY THOUGHTS,
NO VOICE, NO TOUCH, JUST THE WAR THAT I FOUGHT,
I TALK TO WALLS ‘CAUSE THEY DON’T WALK AWAY,
THEY DON’T PROMISE LOVE THEN LEAVE ME TO DECAY.
I’M HAUNTED BY THE GIRL I USED TO BE,
SHE’S SCREAMING FROM THE SHADOWS “COME FIND ME,”
BUT EVERY TIME I REACH—I BLEED—
AND YOU’RE JUST GONE… LIKE I DON’T NEED.
(Verse 2 – faster cadence, unstable)
House turned cage, mind turned knife,
Counting cracks like they’re saving my life,
No footsteps, no laughter, no human sound,
Just my heartbeat tryna drag me down.
I stopped opening doors, stopped answering calls,
Depression got me pacing these same damn walls,
Only leave when the world demands,
Then I run right back to these empty hands.
(Whisper break – layered, creeping)
they don’t come back…
they don’t stay…
you’re too much…
you’re in the way…
(Pre-Chorus – distorted, desperate)
Abandonment’s a daily dose,
A ghost inside me nobody knows,
Each goodbye rewires my brain,
Now love just sounds like future pain.
(Chorus – heavier, more chaotic)
THIRTY-EIGHT DAYS IN THE DARK WITH MY HEAD,
COUNTING EVERY WAY I COULD’VE JUST BEEN DEAD,
NO LIGHT, NO GOD, JUST ME AND THE FEAR,
AND A THOUSAND WAYS TO DISAPPEAR.
I’M BEGGING YOU TO SHOW UP, STAY,
BE THE MAN YOU WERE THAT DAY,
BUT YOU JUST TAKE, THEN WALK AWAY—
LEAVE ME ROTTING WHERE I LAY.
(Bridge – slow, eerie, almost spoken)
I used to believe in forever…
stupid, right?
(distant child laughter warped, then cuts)
I replay your voice like a curse in my skull,
“You’re too hard to love… you’re too much… you’re too full…”
So I shrank, I broke, I bent ‘til I snapped,
Now I don’t even know how to come back.
(Breakdown – bass drop, whispers + screams layered)
stay with me…
why won’t you stay…
I gave you everything… everything… everything…
(scream cut)
(Final Chorus – unhinged, full force)
THIRTY-EIGHT DAYS AND I’M LOSING MY MIND,
TRYNA KILL THE PART OF ME YOU LEFT BEHIND,
IF LOVE’S A GAME THEN I LOST MY LIFE,
CUT TOO DEEP WITH A BROKEN KNIFE.
I DON’T WANT THIS PAIN BUT IT WON’T LET GO,
SUICIDE’S THE ONLY THOUGHT I KNOW,
BUT SOMEWHERE DEEP—A FLICKER, A FIGHT—
A RAGGED BREATH THAT WON’T GO QUIET.
(Outro – soft, haunting, almo
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