Backseat Ghosts

You left your sweater in my backseat

Smelled like summer and a bad idea

Now it rides around like a backseat ghost

I talk to it when you’re not here

Your name’s still carved in the dashboard

I trace the letters at the red lights

Every little scratch is a past life

Every green means we don’t rewrite

You were my monster, my beautiful wreck

Claws in my heart, teeth in my neck (oh)

Loved you like thunder, loud and obsessed

Now I just wrestle these backseat ghosts in my chest

You were my monster, I still confess

I keep on holding what I should forget

Yeah

I was that mixtape kid, cracked case, fast-forward

You were in the passenger, laughing at my last chorus

Fight in the driveway, slam doors, white knuckles

You cried in my hoodie, left salt on the brass buckle

We were late-night diners, fries on a cold plate

Talking ‘bout forever like forever couldn’t rotate

Now I’m solo in the lane, same road, less grace

Your shadow in the mirror, riding shotgun in my headspace

Tried dating other faces, same bar, same songs

They don’t know the code words, don’t hum along

I’m a joke at the jukebox, begging for a rewind

But the quarter’s already gone, like your hand from mine

You were my monster, my beautiful wreck

Claws in my heart, teeth in my neck (yeah)

Loved you like thunder, loud and obsessed

Now I just wrestle these backseat ghosts in my chest

You were my monster, I still confess

I keep on holding what I should forget

Are you driving with the windows down

Still cursing my name out loud

Do you ever hear our old song

And feel it all, all wrong, all wrong

You were my monster, my beautiful wreck

Claws in my heart, teeth in my neck (oh-oh)

Loved you like thunder, loud and obsessed

Now I just wrestle these backseat ghosts in my chest

You were my monster, I still confess

I keep on loving what I should forget