Wake up late
Same four walls, same mistake
Phone full of plans I never make
Talk big, move small, then I flake
Keep telling my self to “grow up” all my
Friends say “im good?”
Pumping me up like friends should.
Wish I could do what I said I would
I don’t know what’s wrong with me
Why can’t I just act my age
Keep on burning every bridge I need
Then complain I’m stuck in the same place
Everybody seems to get it shit
I can’t even fake that peace
If life is just a simple test
How am I already failing at the least?
45 years old with a teenage brain
Paycheck gone, playing stupid game
Find me at the card room, i need to find some way to change
Same old loop, yeah I press replay
Scroll, scroll on my phone
Watch their wins, hate my own
Hustle and struggle that's all I know.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me
Why can’t I just act my age
Keep on burning every bridge I need
Then complain I’m stuck in the same place
Everybody seems to get it . Shit
I can’t even fake that peace
If life is just a simple test
How am I already failing at the least?
Maybe I’m scared I’ll try and choke
So I stay the clown, hide in jokes (yeah)
Maybe I’m fine, just moving slow
But when I’m alone, in my head that doubt gets loud, and starts to grows
I don’t know what’s wrong with me
Why can’t I just act my age
Keep on burning every bridge I need
Then complain I’m stuck in the same place
Everybody seems to get it shit
I can’t even fake that peace
If life is just a simple test
How am I already failing at the least? I dont know whats worth fighting for or why i cant get shit right. And i dont know how i got this way. I know im not alright.
I make it hard to love me. Cause i dont even love myself. Keep tears out my eyes hold all my hurt inside. Happiness is hard to find. When you have so much anger inside.
