More invisible than alive

I flinch when love gets close,

Like it’s just a ghost I used to know.

Smiles feel heavy, hands feel cold,

And “I love you” just echoes hollow.

I’ve walked through fires no one sees,

With bruises hidden beneath my sleeves.

The past still whispers in my ear,

Telling me I don’t belong here.

I’m more invisible than alive,

Faking strength just to survive.

Caught between the pain I hide

And the silence where I cry.

Every hug feels like a lie,

Every “you’re enough” just passes by.

I’m still trying, but deep inside…

I’m more invisible than alive.

They see my name but not my scars,

Don’t ask how I got this far.

Married into walls that don’t forgive,

Loved a man but not the life I live.

His family sees me like a stain,

Blames me for his drifting name.

Even the child we made with grace—

Feels like she’s lost in this loveless space.

I’m more invisible than alive,

In a world where love don’t arrive.

Healing feels like pulling teeth,

And peace is something I barely believe.

They judge what they don’t understand,

But never once reached for my hand.

I’m still here, just hard to find…

More invisible than alive.

If they saw the girl I used to be,

Before pain carved shadows into me…

Would they finally understand,

Why I flinch at a loving hand?

I’m more invisible than alive,

Just a name they won’t let thrive.

But I still hope, beneath the ache,

That one day I won’t have to fake.

That someone will see through my disguise,

Call me by my soul, not just my ties.

But for now, I breathe and strive…

Even when I feel

More invisible than alive.

Still fighting in the dark alone…

Still searching for a place called home.

And maybe that starts inside—

Where I learn to feel

Alive.

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