Blueprint

before the feeling

before the face

there was a shape

that knew its place

not yet moving

not yet drawn

just the pattern

before the form

held in something

vast and still

not yet wanting

just the will

I was the blueprint

before the house

the word before

it left the mouth

the intention

before the choice

I was the silence

before the voice

the master’s attention

like a sun

already whole

in everyone

encoded completely

in a single note

the whole song present

before the throat

held in something

vast and still

not yet wanting

just the will

I was the blueprint

before the house

the word before

it left the mouth

the intention

before the choice

I was the silence

before the voice

this is where the cord begins

this is where the light originates

this is where I chose to forget

so I could find my way back

all the aching that would come

all the longing and the density

already known here

already held

already loved

the pattern

just the pattern

before the name

before the need

before the beautiful

descent

I was

already

complete