Am I A Joke To You?

Late night, staring at my phone, no texts, no calls, just silence

Guess I should've seen the signs, but love made me blind to the violence

You said forever, but forever had an expiration date

I was holdin’ on while you were slippin’ through, now it's way too late

Told me that I was your world, was that just another lie?

While I was dreamin’ of our future, you were livin’ in disguise

Left me stranded in the dark, while you were chasing something new

I was fighting for our love, but was I ever real to you?

Did you ever really love me, or was it just for show?

Was I just a placeholder while you had somewhere else to go?

Am I a joke to you? Just another name you say?

Was I nothing but a shadow, fading out of your embrace?

I gave you all my heart, but you just tore it into two

Tell me, tell me, was it real—or am I a joke to you?

Found your secrets in the midnight air, whispers left on your skin

Didn’t think I’d ever notice, but the truth was sinkin’ in

I was holdin’ on to echoes, memories that weren’t mine

While you were holdin’ someone else, tell me—was it worth the lie?

Every promise that you made turned to dust inside my hands

Guess I was just your safety net while you made bigger plans

Now I’m drowning in the wreckage of the love I thought was true

But the only one who’s laughing in the end is you

Did you ever really love me, or was it just for show?

Was I just a placeholder while you had somewhere else to go?

Am I a joke to you? Just another name you say?

Was I nothing but a shadow, fading out of your embrace?

I gave you all my heart, but you just tore it into two

Tell me, tell me, was it real—or am I a joke to you?

I don’t even need an answer, your silence tells me all

The love I thought was infinite was never there at all

Now I’m walking away from the pieces that you broke

You lost something real… and that’s the biggest joke

Am I a joke to you? Maybe now I see it clear

I was just a moment, not someone you held dear

But someday you'll be standing in the wreckage of your truth

And you'll ask yourself… "was I a joke to you?"