Just numbing

I thought I could drink my pain away, drownin' in the sorrow,

Chasin' shadows in the night, can't face a brighter tomorrow.

Got a police record inked, and my pockets feelin' hollow,

Used to think I had a plan, but now I just feel shallow.

Victim mentality, yeah, it's a heavy chain, Stuck in this cycle, feelin' lost in the rain.

Soul searchin', but the mirror's lookin' back in shame,

Tryna break these chains, but i'm still playin' the same game.

Every bottle that I cracked, every night I went hard,

Thought I was livin' free, but I was just a disregard.

Now I'm tryna rise up, but the ground feels cold,

Lookin' for redemption in a story untold.

Wakin' up from the haze, gotta shift my

frame,

Build a legacy from pain, turn it into my flame.

Streetwise wisdom, learned from the struggle and strife,

Now I'm fightin' for my future, yeah, I'm reclaimin' my life.