Got me shaking from the stress
Every single hour, panic crushing on my chest
I try to open up but my voice is already gone
Staring at the water drifting underneath the bridge, mind dragging me to places that I've never been.
If I dissappear please don't cry
Just know deep down that I tried
I couldn't carry this alone
And not a single person picked up the phone
Staring at the river got this feeling in my chest
If I just jump it'll handle the rest
Suffocating deep beneath the waves
All the anxiety just washed away
Now I'm feeling numb and not alone
I can sense a place that feels like home
Open up my eyes, IM PARALYZED back in my bed. I wish I were dead
If I dissappear please don't cry
Just know deep down that I tried
I couldn't carry this alone
And not a single person picked up the phone
I can't keep trying i can't keep fighting
Open wounds and bullet holes
Walk around and no one knows
That deep inside I want to die
All I wanna do is touch the sky
Please don't cry when I die
I know this will hurt my mom
21 years and her baby's gone
I keep replaying every moment in my head
When I lay down in bed
And all I hear is static in my skull
Like the world moved on
And left me buffering alone
And the nights keep getting quieter
But somehow they’re the loudest place I know
Every memory hits like broken glass
Cutting deeper than I show
I reach for someone’s warmth
But all I feel is distance in my chest
So If I dissappear please don't cry
Just know deep down that I tried
I couldn't carry this alone
And not a single person picked up the phone
If there’s a reason I’m still here
It’s buried somewhere far from here
My hands are raw, my voice is gone
It's not like anyone would notice I'm not me at all
And no one’s looking anyway
When i disappear don’t pretend to care
Don’t paint me into some saint
I was just tired
Tired and small and worn out
So let the river take me down
Let the water make me drown
I’m still here on borrowed time
I guess this world was just not mine
