Repetitive Thoughts

All these repetitive suggestions? 

Toss it in the bin
I’m praying hard, forgive me Lord cause I’m about to sin.

Did you know that I’m a prisoner inside my head?
Slowly losing hope and hanging on just by a thread
Constant nightmares with a thousand trials I have fled
I bit reality, not sorry for the things i’ve said.

Through every pain, every emotion, every single tear
Poured out myself but it went in and out the other ear
Tried to calm the storm that hold backs all my lurking fears
Only to find the inner me’s been really dead for years..

.. Is it wrong that I am mad at you?
How could you leave like that?
I’m empty and without a clue.. 
You know your pain I’ve now consumed it’s what you’ve put me through,
So much to process and you know i don’t know what to do.

.. So much more is missing from your plaque, 
Each time I think of you, my heart receives another crack..
Like a part of me is missing, I can’t bring you back..
Things will never be the same, I guarantee you that..

If you are suicidal, I need you to listen,
Reach out to me,  know how it feels to want to keep your distance
There’s nothing wrong with you, but this is something worth the fixing
Won’t let you go through this alone, and that is MY decision

rap, hip hop, trap,melodic,female vocals emotional