Please Save Me

I hid my face for weeks

Held my breath in the dark

Prayed with a shaking hand

And a hole in my heart

The words fell to the floor

Like coins in a drain

I said, “If You’re there at all

Why does it hurt this way?”

I’m tired of pretending

I’m fine on my own

Tired of this distance

Tired of being stone

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God, please save me, I know You’re here tonight

Don’t let me lose my faith in this fight

When I’m too weak to hold on to You

Hold on to me

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My room felt like a grave

My chest felt too small

I stared at my own hands

And I felt nothing at all

I wore doubt like a coat

Let it cover my skin

But deep in all my breaking

I still wanted You in

I’m tired of pretending

I’m fine on my own

Tired of this distance

Tired of being stone

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God, please save me, I know You’re here tonight

Don’t let me lose my faith in this fight

When I’m too weak to hold on to You

Hold on to me

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I felt You in the silence

Right there in the dark

Not loud, not distant

But close to my heart

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God, You saved me, You were here the whole time

You never let me lose my faith in the fight

When I was too weak to hold on to You

You held on to me