[Intro]
Yeah
I was dead in the daytime
Breathin’ but buried
Listen
[Verse 1]
Woke up on the floor, teeth grind, jaw lock
Phone full of threats, whole fam on block
Shaky little hands, brown bag, one drop
Told myself "last time" every damn stop
I stole from my blood, blamed it on the system
Lied to my mother with a hug, then I missed her
Ran from the mirror, every day, got quicker
Thinner in the face, but the shadow got thicker
Dealer knew my habit like a schedule
Every other call, "yo I got you, need to help you"
Help was a needle, help was a lie
Help was a handshake pushin’ me to die
Overdose lights, white room, I flatline
Doc said "you get one more, that’s your last time"
Heard my little sister in the hallway cryin’
Right there, I got tired of dyin’
[Chorus]
I went from nothin’, less than nothin’
Cold on the bathroom tile
From full-time slave to the substance
To runnin’ this whole lifestyle
From failure written on my forehead
To standin’ here, I don’t run
From numb in the night, yeah, I said it
To feelin’ like number one
[Verse 2]
Day one, shakes, sweat in my bed
Demons in the ceiling tryna crawl in my head
Voices in my ear like "you’ll never stay clean"
But I walked through the fire, came out, turned mean
Mean with the focus, ruthless with the plan
Clock in, stock shelves, built it by hand
Boss said "you’re late" now he calls me "sir"
’Cause I built my own name, made my own damn curve
Got a little crib, keys on the table
Food in the fridge, I am finally able
Tattoo on my wrist, just the date I rose
Remind me every morning how the story goes
Now I talk to the kids in the hallway
Tell ’em "you can turn a wrong life the long way"
If I climbed up out of that grave I dug
Then you can turn every scar to a shrug, yeah
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
This for the nights I almost checked out
This for the days I had my chest out
Acting like I chose that hell, I didn’t
Now I choose every step, every minute
I ain’t perfect, I’m present
I ain’t flawless, I’m here
Every breath that I’m gettin’
Is another "no" to the fear
[Chorus]