Afraid of falling in Love

I stopped.

Everytime I knew,

that I could wind up,

on this path,

I halted my footsteps.

Everytime I turned my back,

on the person infront of me,

because I was to scared,

to love her back.

Even if I saw,

life blooming in her eyes,

if I felt,

happiness emanating from her,

I still went away,

because I was to afraid,

to give this a shot.

Afraid,

of what will happen if that doesn't work

My optimism failed at that time,

because negative thoughts filled my head

When it came to

imagining myself

in the arms of another

I always pictured myself

sitting between a group of friends

single and alone

And I used to be happy

but since the day I saw her

and I met her and I talked to her

I realise I don't want to be happy like this.

I want her to be the one

to hold me when I cry myself out at night

I want her to be the one

to laugh at my lame jokes

I want her to be the one

to look up to her and say "I am not afraid"