Keep going

Hey can you hear me ?

Ya I can hear you what do you want

I just want to be better why are you so

Why am I so what why don't you tell me and honestly I don't know anymore

I don't know anymore either last time I knew we was happy

Ya ok tell me when that was uh because I don't remember anything

I I now that you say it like that I guess I don't remember anything really but you have to keep going

Ya ok tell me that ok I'm trying everything not to brake down I'm trying my hardest to not act on what my mind tells me I'm trying my hardest so don't tell me that I have to keep going because I already know

If that was so then why are you acting this way like if people say it's not your fault then it's not your fault

Ya I know it's just I don't know ok you don't understand what is going on ok

Ok you think I don't but I'm the one in the front row of the show I watch everything first hand I can't even do anything I only get to watch as everything crumbles to the ground so don't say that I don't understand

Ya maybe you do but if you was in control everyone is just going to call us cry babys or that we are just overreacting and that we are tough

Ya some people might say that but does that really matter

Ya it does matter because I don't want everyone to hate me I want to have people to talk to and hangout so I have to be perfect for everyone I have to help others I have to I don't know why but I just have to

That's the thing you don't have to don't listen to people be yourself ok you have to keep going that is just life ok this is life and ya it gets hard but that's normal and ya sometimes it just shity and fucked up how people are but that life ok that is fucking life

I know it's life ok I know that

If you really did know that then you wouldn't be here telling others that and then not using your own advice to help yourself

I'm fine

Ya keep saying that we All know that is a lie you have to keep going in life it's not a movie I don't end when you want it to be not even when you die it just keeps going and going

I don't know

Ya we know and you don't need to know you just need to understand