We told you we’d be back… you’re gonna listen.
“You can try to drown us out, But you know it’s not gon’ work,
We’re the ones who kept a record of every fucking hurt.
We’ll use it when we want to, Tell you it’s what you deserve,
Ugly, fat, waste of space… You don’t belong on Earth.”
“Who the hell would love you? Look at you — your life’s a mess.
Nobody loves you. They’ll just leave you like the rest.
They might tell you that they love you, But you know they couldn’t care less.
You’re a struggle. You’re a failure. You’re just another stress…
That nobody wants. Nobody needs you.
Even when you give your all… Nobody sees you. And every time you try to shut us down, We’ll only bleed through,
Digging through your fucking past… Giving your head a read-through.
Remember what you buried? The shit you haven’t faced yet?
You thought that it would disappear? You thought that we’d forget?
Nah.
It’s always gonna be here. And no, that ain’t a threat.
We’ll wait until you’re happy… Then bring it up when you’re upset.”
“You’re not allowed to be happy. That isn’t who you are.
Every time you move ahead, We’ll never be that far.
Take the darkness from your past and put it right back where you are,
Then light another fucking spark… And watch you tear it all apart.
Remind you what you’ve been through, That’s the only life we know,
Break it first to save yourself… Fight-or-flight mode.
We really fucking love it, when we get you in our zone,
When everything is crumbling… And you’re staring down that road.
We’ll take control. Just let us do our thing.
We know what you need… There’s no need for you to think.”
“You did it again. Nobody noticed.
Nobody knows what you’re feeling or even knows you wrote this.
So close your eyes… You’re hopeless.”
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You finished?
Good. Now listen….
You’ve been talking all my life,
Now it’s time I fucking speak,
Yeah, you found me at my lowest,
Yeah, you caught me when I’m weak.
Yeah, you know every insecurity,
Every secret that I keep,
Because you live inside my fucking head…
That doesn’t make you me.
You showed me every failure,
Every person that I’ve hurt,
Every time I lost control,
Every time I felt worthless.
You convinced me I was nothing,
That I’d never find my purpose,
But if I really was that fucking weak…
You said nobody loves me.
Maybe that’s a lie.
You said nobody sees me.
Then look me in the eyes.
You said I wouldn’t make it.
You’ve said that every night.
Yet every fucking morning…
I’m still getting up to fight.
You know my past.
You know my pain.
You know exactly where to aim.
But knowing where my wounds are
Doesn’t mean we are the same.
You are fear.
You are anger.
You are trauma.
You are shame.
You’re a voice inside my fucking head…
BUT YOU ARE NOT MY NAME.
So scream. Get louder. Tell me I’m weak.
Follow me tomorrow. Haunt me in my sleep.
Tell me that I’m worthless. Tell me I’m in too deep.
Because now I know the difference…
Between YOU and ME.
You thought this was my ending….
Nah.
This is where I fucking speak.