Kieran this song is about you my eldest son. When you came along I was actually starting a diet but instead of my belly going down it got wider. I was only 21 and couldn't believe it when the Dr said your gonna be a mum. I had to get myself prepared because I was really shocked and weren't in the best place if I'm honest. I thought you was a girl and I'd already picked your name but then they said a boy and I was shocked all over again. You wasn't in a rush to come you took your time but then when it was time your birth was fast and over quickly and I pretty much did It by myself and the first thing I saw was blue eyes and there was no sound you didn't cry. You just looked at me as if you knew what the next 15 years would be like for us two. You was a hyper boy and you was mad and kept me awake but you always made me laugh even as a toddler you was full of energy and joking with me. You are unique and special and I knew you was different but you never let it bother you. You never let it get you down you always tried your best till you just couldn't take it anymore and mum had to step in and stand up for what was right for you. Get you out the anxiety and stress that school was causing you because I always knew you wouldn't cope but no one would listen even though I knew best, the system was against us. I pulled you through and got you the help that I knew you deserved and put you somewhere I knew you would manage and it paid off. All the times I thought you would be staying at home because lockdown wasn't easy but you didn't give up you did try and for that I appreciate. I remember the first day you started your new school you was that high you wanted to jump off the roof but luckily the staff kept you safe because they knew what to do. You have always made me proud no matter what anyone says and I never listen to what people say on how I raised you I know I did my best and they could never do it and deep down they know it. Your recent report really made me cry as it's a testimant to the boy whose grown up and it fills me with pride because they are 100 percent right your funny and popular and you brighten up a classroom I'm so glad they see your worth and I know your be a success it doesn't matter about English or maths your talented in sports and rap music and football and I know you will make the most of your life you don't need to prove it as mum believes in you and always will no matter what anyone says you are the best and your smashing itm never stop being you Kieran and trying hard and never believe negativity you know what I'm talking about but im not going to ruin this song just know I have your back and the door is always open you can always call this your home. Mum loves you more then your ever know my beautiful son
