[Verse 1]
You say, “Talk to me”
My throat turns to glass
Every word that I rehearse
Shatters when you ask
I laugh at the wrong time
Cry when I’m alone
I’m a stranger in my skin
Even more in your home
You read my face like pages
But the ink keeps running
You keep circling the sentence
I keep changing the subject, stuttering
[Chorus]
Emotions
They don’t move how they’re supposed to
I’m oceans
But I never can expose you
The storm’s inside, the sky looks fine
I’m frozen
You just wanna hold the real me close
But I don’t even know if he’s here
Emotions
I don’t even know what I feel this year
[Verse 2]
You ask, “Are you happy?”
I answer, “I’m… here”
Measure life in obligations
Sip my anger with my fear
You touch my arm so softly
Like I might dissolve
You keep offering your heart
I keep offering you resolve
I make charts of our patterns
Then I tear them apart
Try to give you something honest
But I only give you parts
[Chorus]
Emotions
They don’t move how they’re supposed to
I’m oceans
But I never can expose you
The storm’s inside, the sky looks fine
I’m frozen
You just wanna hold the real me close
But I don’t even know if he’s here
Emotions
I don’t even know what I feel this year
[Rap Feature]
We been pacing this hallway, quiet like a truce
You say, “Tell me what you’re feeling,” I just offer you the proof
Read receipts, time stamps, every little move
But the math in my head never adds up to a truth
I was raised on “shake it off,” trained on “stay strong”
Now my body screams “danger” when you ask, “What’s wrong?”
Every hug feel heavy, like a borrowed coat
Fits you just right but it’s tight on my throat
I been scared you’ll see the static in my chest
All these half-formed thoughts I can’t confess
If I say “I love you,” will it sound rehearsed?
If I say “I’m lost,” will you think I’m worse?
I’m a maze with my own name scratched off the map
You be knocking on the door, I be hiding in the back
Still I’m here, two feet on your floor
Trying to learn my own heart by loving you more (yeah)
[Bridge]
What if I’m not broken
Just unread, untranslated
What if every numb moment
Is a feeling, just outdated
Could you stay one more minute
While I learn my own reflection
While I name each ghost inside me
Give this chaos a direction (oh)
[Chorus]
Emotions
They don’t move how they’re supposed to
I’m oceans
But I never can expose you
The storm’s inside, the sky looks fine
I’m frozen
You just wanna hold the real me close
But I don’t even know if he’s here
Emotions
Trying to understand what I feel this year