[Verse 1]
You said forever on a Tuesday
In a parking lot
With shaking hands
Left your hoodie on my chair
And your toothbrush by my sink
Kept your secrets in my phone case
All the screenshots
All the “baby
Trust”
I built a future on a story
You rehearsed for everyone
[Pre-Chorus]
How did I miss
Every warning sign
Kept painting green
Over every line
You were so close
I couldn’t see your face
Just your shadows
Filling up my space
[Chorus]
You were never who you said you were
Just a costume in my favorite shirt
All the “I love you”s sound so rehearsed now
Burning in my throat
Thought I knew you
Thought I knew myself
But I lost me trying to save your hell
Tearing off the mask
It kinda hurts
But at least I’m walking home alone
[Verse 2]
Your friends told me you were “complicated”
Guess that’s what they call a living lie
I kept blaming all the cracks on timing
While you stood there with the hammer behind your spine
I dimmed my light so you’d feel brighter
Shrank my dreams to fit your room
You said
“You’re crazy
Why you so emotional?”
Funny how that’s sounding true
[Pre-Chorus]
‘Cause now I see
Every twisted string
All the small digs
Dressed up like a fling
You were so loud
Inside of my head
I forgot I
Had a voice instead
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
Yeah
I loved a ghost in your body
Fell for a script in your eyes
But I’m done apologizing
For reading between the lines
I’ll wear my scars like eyeliner
Let every smear show where I’ve been
If I had to lose the version of you
To finally find the real me
I win
[whispered vocals] I win
I win
[Chorus]