Didn’t Mean to Disappear

I know it’s been a while

Since you heard anything from me

But I couldn’t stay a child

In a house that stole my peace

There were hands that hurt my body

There were words that broke my mind

And I left without a warning

Just to try and stay alive

I didn’t mean to disappear

Didn’t mean to shut you out

But I was hanging by a thread

Too scared to make a sound

I’m safe now, I’m healing

And I’ve finally found some air

I didn’t run from you, my dear

I just ran from everywhere

I’ve got two jobs and my own bed

And I laugh more than I cry

There’s a grace that’s slowly teaching me

To let the past go by

I forgive the ones who hurt me

Though they’ll never understand

And I hope one day they see it

The damage in their hands

I didn’t mean to disappear

Didn’t mean to make you doubt

But the silence was my shelter

When the truth could burn me out

I’m still me, I still love you

And I’ll always be right here

I didn’t run from love, my dear

I just ran to something clear

So please forgive the quiet

Please forgive the fear

I’m just trying to stay whole now…

Didn’t mean to disappear.